Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Beauty For Ashes


Isaiah 61:1,3 - "The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor. "

Fly away home sweet child of God! Six weeks and two days pregnant today, due May 19th, but it isn't to be. Two babies now await us beyond heaven's gates, perfect in form, whole in spirit. How blessed I am to have carried you, even if but for weeks, days. Praise be to the Lord for the wonderful works of His hands! We cry, we mourn, but already we see beauty instead of ashes, we find gladness beyond our mourning, and we choose praise instead of despair! Hope is not lost. Rest awhile, wait awhile, heal awhile. Spring brings new life, we will wait on God's perfect timing, we will wait for our spring.

Pslam 139:13-17 - "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!"

12 comments:

Jennisa said...

Sarah...I am so sorry for your loss, yet again. Your strength and your trust and love for the Lord are so amazing, and I am glad you feel His presence right now.

I will keep you in my prayers...
(Oh, and I love the Beauty for Ashes song by Shane and Shane)

**hugs**

Amy said...

I'm so sorry...

May 19th is my birthday. I will remember your little one, Sarah.

Mindy said...

I am so sorry.

Carrie said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You are in my prayers.

Jenn Lynn said...

Oh, Sarah, my heart hurts with yours. You know that I've been praying for a different outcome since we first learned of this life. But alas, God had other plans. Just remember, we need to trust God's character even when we don't understand His hand.

I admire you and feel as though you're an inspiration to many, more than you know. Hang in there! I'm just a phone call, email, or coffee date away. I love you more than words can say.

Mindy said...

You are so sweet, thanks for stopping by my page.

Kim said...

Sarah, I just want you to know that even though we didn't get to know each other well before you moved, I am here. In the past year I also have lost two little ones early on (one at 5 weeks the friday before Christmas and one at 6 weeks Easter weekend) and I understand how hard it is and how scary it is to even want to attempt it all over again just to get your precious miracle. I am currently on my third pregnancy and this one seems to be viable. I am now 23 weeks and going strong. Since this is my first, I still have some overwhelming fear of losing this one too, but I also know, God has a plan for our lives and our little ones. If you ever want to talk or want me to let you know what I have found out since starting on this journey, drop me an email! wallace_kim@yahoo.com Kim Wallace

Amber L. said...

Beautiful post Sarah! You are so strong. I love you so much and pray you will have a healthy pregnancy soon.

stacey said...

i am so sorry sarah. i will pray for you and your family.

Michelle said...

just wanted to stop by and let you know I'm still praying.

Elise said...

Just wanted to let you know that I'm still praying... you are remembered.

Perhaps our little ones play together - in the palm of His hand! And what a place to be.

(((Sarah)))

Beka said...

((Sarah))

I was saddened to read this today, and yet thankful that you are even now able to see beauty instead of ashes, and to choose praise above despair.

Indeed, hope is not lost... for our hope lies in Him, our unchanging and ever-merciful God!

I will be praying for you, dear sister. May His love and peace enfold you today.